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Skriven 2009-07-18 19:15:58 av hap newsom (1:124/311)
     Kommentar till en text av MICHAEL LOO
Ärende: RE: families 851
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Hiya Michael!

->  HN> Pop was well liked by all, and even all my 
->  HN> cousins considered him their favorite uncle.
-> 
-> With my father, his general goodness varied inversely
-> with the proximity to himself, so the household
-> lived in fear of him, the extended family a mixture
-> of amusement and distate and fondness (mostly
-> depending on the age of the perceiver), his immediate
-> colleagues a mixture of respect and shrugs at his
-> foibles, and the scientific community near awe.
-> 
-> I think a lot of had to do with a core of self-loathing
-> that paradoxically combined with intellecual arrogance,
-> so the immediate family suffered from his assessments
-> of both "how can anyone I spawned be any good" and "how
-> can anyone I spawned be so stupid." It was not an
-> atmosphere to encourage learning for the sake of
-> learning but rather for the sake of avoiding ridicule.
-> These are threads that run through my psyche, as well,
-> as they were inculcated at a very young age.
-> 
And that's the very worst time 
to be inculcated!!

->  HN> I couldn't see it until I was old enough to
->  HN> see the different standards that he set
->  HN> for us kids than for the rest of the world.
-> 
-> In our case, it was obvious enough for young children
-> to take note of, in part because of the caricaturic
-> intensity of it all.
->
Well I didn't say how young we were
when it became apparent to us...but 
it was well before we were in school.
 
->  HN> And how someone so patient with everyone
->  HN> else could have absolute zero with his own .
-> 
-> My father had little patience with those he considered
-> peers or heirs but quite good patience with those he
-> deemed well below him especially in the intellectual
-> sphere.
-> 
-> His thing was "if you can't do it perfectly, don't
-> bother to do it at all." So he had no problem with
-> those who he considered to do it perfectly or with
-> those who didn't do it at all but had no patience
-> with those like me whose efforts could have benefited
-> from a little process such as revision or even a
-> mere intellectual revisitation as he was not very
-> good at these processes. It had to spring full
-> formed from the shoulder of Zeus or nothing. This
-> is not good for those who are attempting to learn
-> anything - I was expected to perform at finished
-> adult standard from an incredibly young age, and
-> that's left its scars.
->
I was expected to be invisible and 
not be an embarrassment...both of
those I failed in doing many many times.
-> 
->  HN> As we age, I fear the immune system becomes 
->  HN> less and less "decent".
-> 
-> As I age, my immune system is stronger than ever, but
-> it keeps getting fooled. It's not like Ruth's issue,
-> but it's noticeable. I guess the tradeoff is either
-> have the thing get weaker, so you get sick more, or
-> else have it start attacking stuff at random. It seems
-> that I'm allergic to the world now (but oddly with this
-> constant exposure, I'm better with cats than I used to
-> be - so maybe it's getting weaker as it's getting stronger).
-> 
Hmmm, you continue to be an anomoly!

->  -> Dolly Parton's Corn Pone
->  -> Makes about 1 1/2 dozen, depending on size.
->  HN> Ours is about the same...but we
->  HN> tended to add just a smidge of baking
->  HN> powder as well. 
-> 
-> Dolly Parton don't need no steenkin' inflation.
-> 
Now THATS funny!!! (copyright Burt Ford)

chat with you soon
hap
 
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